Discontentment

Have you ever had so much on your mind that you just couldn't seem to close your eyes for a good night's sleep? Lately that's me.  I've been through a lot this past year and I think it's finally starting to take it's toll on me. Typically I try not to let things worry me but the older I get, the more I have to lose. I know that may sound crazy to some but lately I feel like I'm going down instead of up. It's really hard to put into words but my mind is all boggled down.  I think I spend too much time comparing my life and accomplishments to those of my friends. HUGE mistake!!!

 I know things aren't  always what they seem yet I don't think I'm envious of them, I'm  just frustrated with me. The word "discontent" comes to mind. I'm not unhappy but something is missing. I have this longing, this need;  I need to feel satisfied, I need to feel complete, I need to feed this hunger inside, I need to keep writing.